Hello, My Name Is ____

So. They call you the nerd. The chick who wears Star Wars t-shirts and dies her hair blue and reads more than she talks. The one who writes fanfic and gets straight A's and dreams of otherworldly ideas. 

They call you the athlete. The one who is devoted to her team, who never changes out of her jersey, who is loud and competitive. The one who is on a diet and spends her free time in the gym and flunked math but that's okay because you're future is on the field. 

They call you the diva. The one who has more makeup brushes than could actually be useful, who always lends clothes to people because who wouldn't want to dress like you? The one who has tried every drink at Starbucks and doesn't eat carbs and looks cute in every Snapchat filter. 

They call you the "funny one". The one who has a quick wit and a sweet smile, the one who couldn't possibly have any personal problems because she just jokes and laughs 24/7. 


Well. What if the nerd can throw a perfect spiral. 

What if the athlete wears makeup. 

What if the diva likes pizza. 

What if the "funny one" cries herself to sleep each night. 

What then? society asks. How do we label them now? 

You don't. 

Know why? 

Because you are so much more than the name tag pinned to your shirt. You are so much more than your perfect three-pointer, your favorite makeup brand, your hair color, your style, your playlist, your job. People try to make these things into labels, making it a big deal to pin a word to someone's forehead and saying, this, this is what you are. 

So what are you? 

I'm ____. 

Don't fill in that blank. That blank can't capture what you are, what you do, where you've been, the things you go through each day, what makes you smile, laugh, cry. YOU'RE COMPLEX. You, reading this, are such a complex being, and it's amazing! You're a child of God, and He made you to be this way! He made you, and you are pleasing to Him. YOU please the Father of the universe. 

Labels are painful. Don't attach labels to something so complex and beautiful as yourself. You have so much to offer the world, more than what fits into that blank. 

So go spread the love of God today. Because He made us in His Holy Image, but not everyone knows that. Go share the good news. 

First Day of Lent Thoughts...

I went to my first high school winter formal over the past weekend. I helped put it on, actually, and it was a ton of work, but the outcome was worth it. I had so many of my favorite people in one place, and we all dressed up and took horrid quality photos and danced till our muscles ached. 

There's a certain glow that is added to life once you find the right relationships with people. Once you take a step back and look at all the friendships you've made, and think yes, THESE are the ones I want in my life forever. Not all friendships work out, but once you've gotten to a point where you realize, wow, this isn't going anywhere... they're here to stay... that's a beautiful feeling. These are the people I want to have good conversations with, people I want to laugh with and walk through life's obstacles with. People I want to take ridiculously bad looking pictures with, and see new places with, and explore new memories with.

We don't have to find them right away. Often it takes a lifetime to find your good relationships and build a good group of friends. And I'm not naive; I know that even though it feels like the friendships I have now are forever, I know that life happens and they may not last. But it's so nice to just think about who is in your life NOW, who is making your life a happier one. 

This is something I have discovered with my relationship with God recently as well. The people in my life, even if it feels like the perfect, life-long friendship, could leave someday. But my friendship with God is truly the perfect, everlasting relationship. So I want to spend time this Lent building it up. I want my friendship with God to be a meaningful one, one that becomes not just a part of my life, but IS my life. 

This is what I'm working on this Lent. I'm spending more time with God. 

Hello February!

Guys!! I've been absent a lot, I know, I haven't been very active on this blog or others. BUT THAT CHANGES. Hopefully. 

Let's talk about January though! 

LIFE THINGS

Went back to school, was super busy all the time, same old, same old. I went to the LA Walk for Life, which was really awesome. 

I just enjoyed this month. I got better at living in the moment and enjoying what comes. My eating habits were pretty bad coming into this month, but I made myself start eating better and I mentally feel a lot better when I eat healthy. So I've been in a pretty good mood lately. :) But I also learned more about my own faith and discovered I've set up some boundaries for myself in my own spiritual life. I'm working on taking them down because God loves me with an infinite love, and while I can never repay that, I want to be able to honestly say I can give Him all of me. 

BOOK THINGS

Mostly re-reading... except for school. I'm reading Dante's Divine Comedy in English, although actually that's a re-read too...But I have a post inspired by the Inferno coming, and I'm excited about it. 

WRITING THINGS

I set a deadline for myself, that I had to hit 45K words before the end of the month. And I failed, but I came pretty close! And I've decided to stop setting so many deadlines when it comes to writing this book because it takes the fun away from it and makes it feel like a chore and I get less motivated to write. 

It's going to be a long book, though. No end in sight. I'm hoping to be done before summer starts though. 

January was...

//late nights where the world seems altered just the slightest

//mac n cheese dinners

//sitting in the very front pew in church, talking to God

//spontaneous adventures that weren't actually that spontaneous but there was a lot of laughter :)

//early morning drives

//rain on the window

Favorite January Moments...

//writing in a cafe

//driving with the windows down

//laughing with my brothers about inside jokes

//eating In N Out (I mean it's just the best, it should always be in this list)

LET'S TALK!! HOW WAS YOUR MONTH?