Saturday, December 24, 2016

Three Ways to Get in the Holiday Spirit



Not that any of us really need help in that department I think... Who doesn't love Christmas, right?? 
Okay, I don't want to sound cheesy throughout this post though--I do know that Christmas isn't about what you wear or what music you listen to or what you're giving/getting. I know it's about presents the birth of our Savior. HOWEVER these are three ways to make it feel a little more like the Christmas season x) 


1) Listen to Christmas music


I love Christmas  music!! Lately I've been listening to the above album, Michael Bublé's Christmas album, because it really isn't Christmas without Michael Bublé. x) 

2) Wear red and green


I don't have a lot of red clothing actually, for some strange reason, but I've got a lot of green! So I'm adding some red in there by painting my nails (very badly, but oh well) and wearing red Christmas socks and BAM I'm a walking Christmas tree :)

(Oh, also, the peppermint mocha at Starbucks = 👌) 


3) Go Christmas-light hunting

Did this with my family the other night, and wow, Christmas lights are beautiful!! Sometimes I have to stay at school until late, and so people are already turning on their lights when I'm driving home, and I take the long route through the residential areas on my way home just so I can see them all. 
It's the little things :)


What are you doing to get in the holiday spirit? 🎄 Merry Christmas, you guys!!

Thursday, December 22, 2016

sometime last night




cold fires

faded polaroids

sweaters

blankets

wind and rain

fairy lights

car heaters

converse

skidding tires

painted nails

laughing smiles

fuzzy red socks

phone calls

baseball caps

warm mugs

old guitars

tired hearts

mint chocolate

kitchen lights



can't wait for sunday...



Tuesday, December 13, 2016

...waiting...

Isaiah 40:31
"Wait" 





You know that feeling? 
When you're waiting for something? 
And sometimes it comes quickly
But most times
It doesn't
And you're waiting.
And you're waiting. 
And... you're waiting...

And you want to scream
Because it's so hard
And your patience has worn so thin
You're scared it will snap. 

And you're scared to wait for something
You know may never happen
Because it's come to that point
Where you're not sure it will.

It feels like looking across the ocean
Trying to see past the horizon

And it's hard
And it's painful sometimes
And you just want 
To stop waiting

You
Reading this now
Are picturing your own situation
Because everyone's waiting for something. 

But God tells us to 
Wait.

Why? 
Why do we have to wait? 

Why do we have to live with that thought
"Not today.
Maybe someday
But not today." 

I don't know
What you're waiting for
But just know this: 

God is worth the wait.


///

In this season of Advent, we are waiting for the birth of Christ. We are waiting for the wonderful Second Coming. We wait throughout our lives, preparing our hearts and our souls. And I know that sometimes our patience can wear down, but just know that it's going to be worth it x)

<33


Saturday, December 10, 2016

The Little Prince :: A Review



A few months ago, I watched this movie called The Little Prince with my siblings. To be honest, I wasn't expecting much. Every once in a while, my mom brings home a movie and has us watch it. And they're always pretty good movies, but with this one I was completely awestruck. Amazed. Speechless. (And if you know me in person, you know that last one isn't an easy feat.) 

This movie has the appearance of being a little kid's movie. And yes, it could be. My little sisters watched it and loved it. But it's a movie that I think is made for this very adult world we live in. 

You watch it in two stories at once, two ideas being played out. The animation is different for each story. The first story is of a little girl living with her micromanaging mother. She and her mother move to a new, bland, ordered neighborhood that reflects the little girl's own bland, ordered life. The mother has the girl's whole life planned, down to the very minute. She has a huge chart to check off each daily accomplishment, and everything adds up to this little girl becoming a very successful "grown up". 



Then the little girl meets her neighbor. Her neighbor is an Old Man who lives in a mismatched house with his slightly mismatched mind. Or at least, that's what it looks like at first. In an act of curiosity, the little girl sneaks over to see the Old Man's world. 
The immediate difference slaps you in the face. You watch as the little girl leaves her world of evenly cut grass and a polished, gray house to this colorful, bright, lively backyard with birds and overgrown bushes and a broken-down plane. She and the Old Man become friends and she helps him with his plane while he tells her the story of the Little Prince. 




"Once there was a little prince who lived on a planet scarcely bigger than himself and who had a need for a friend."

The second story slides into the Old Man's past. He was an aviator who crashed in the desert and met the Little Prince. 



The Little Prince's story appears strange at first. He flies from one planet (or asteroid, really) to another by clinging to a flock of passing birds, in search of a friend. He meets the inhabitants of these planets, who are all self-involved, bizarre people. One spends his time tallying up the stars, never really seeing how beautiful they are. One believes he is king of the universe, though he doesn't even have anyone on his own planet to rule. One spends his time seeking applause from an empty audience. 


"I know a planet where there is a certain red-faced gentleman. He has never smelled a flower. He has never looked at a star. He has never done anything in his life but add up figures. And all day he says over and over, 'I am busy with matters of consequence!'"


The Little Prince's world is odd. There are the subtle, meaningful metaphors placed throughout it. There is the peculiar, yet beautiful wisdom of this Little Prince. There is the love between him and his Rose. 




"The shame was that they loved each other. But they were both too young to know how to love."

One of the biggest themes in this story is the idea of growing up. Unlike most movies with this theme, it does not portray the adults to be the "bad guys". The mother loves the little girl; this is clearly shown. It simply shows the audience that growing up isn't a bad thing, although one should not forget their child-like curiosity of the world. You should not become like the man who spends his time counting up the stars--instead, see how beautiful they are. You should not become like the self-centered "king of the universe"--instead, observe the world around you. You should not become like the man who seeks applause and approval from everyone--instead, find the beauty in yourself. 

You should not become like the mother who loved her daughter so much she hurt them both. 
Instead, love her enough to let go a little. 

The Little Prince ends up deciding that grown-ups are "very, very odd." He comes into the desert and shares his story and his wisdom with the Aviator. 



"Growing up isn't the problem, forgetting is."

Just everything about this movie is so wonderfully done. The themes of love, wonder, growing up, and not getting lost in this adult world are portrayed in a simple, honest, sweet way. We see in the absurdity of the Little Prince's story the attractiveness of it. In his world, one can travel via birds. Roses can love. A little boy can have more wisdom than a grown man. And I think this is why people are so drawn to this story. 

"It is only with the heart that one sees rightly. What is essential is invisible to the eye."


This story is unique. I've never read the play by Antoine de Saint-Exupery, but I think it's kind of hard to find in English...? I would like to read it someday though. 

This movie is so beyond words. The wise sayings of the Little Prince. All the hidden meanings and subtle metaphors. Just... everything. Go watch this movie. 

Age recommendation? Basically all ages. Seriously, if you are a human person with a heart and a soul then you have to watch this movie. 
If you would like a more in-depth review of The Little Prince, this is a really really good one by Elly Gard.  

I highly recommend this movie if you're interested in simple, beautiful movies that fill you with a sense of wonder. 

Thursday, December 1, 2016

Hello December




'Tis the season to be jolly. x) 

Seriously though, December is the BEST MONTH EVERRRR and if it snowed in SoCal, it would be even more epic. But people are still going to the beach down here. I want snow. 

(It's very sad how weak SoCal-ians are actually. It was 60 degrees at school the other day and everyone was wrapped up in big jackets and complaining about the freezing weather.


NOVEMBER IN REVIEW

I did not do NaNo, and I'm immensely grateful I didn't, because school is taking up everything these days. Junior Year is slowly killing me and if I die just know that I loved you all. 
Although I'm hoping I'll be able to do it next year. AND I got a new story idea a few days ago...? And this happens a lot, where I get a new idea and obsess over it for a bit and then forget about it, but this time I mean it!! (But who knows, really.) 


November was.....

//peppermint mochas

//family

//giving thanks

//GOOD FOOD

//walking along the beach

//bright sunsets

//long drives

//music

//laughing

//waffles

//cookie dough

//bonfires

//big flannels

//movies


Favorite November Moments....

//singing Christmas carols in the car

//going to see Dr. Strange with friends and then to a bonfire

//watching all four parts of the new Gilmore Girls season in one day with my cousin

//playing the alphabet game in the car with my brother and cousins

//turning seventeen 

//waffles and tea on my birthday... x)

//the fall dance

//getting multiple new mugs to add to my collection

//W R I T I N G

//reading The Lunar Chronicles


Overall, November was pretty great, full of lazy days and waffles and hot drinks, which is always good :) 
How was your November?

Thursday, November 24, 2016

Finding Reasons to be Thankful



Hey guys.

A few days ago, I got into my first (and hopefully my last) car accident. 

It wasn't bad, and everybody's fine. It was really scary though in the moment, and I felt awful the rest of the day. 

But the one thought that kept bugging me was, why did this happen? This wasn't supposed to happen.

Before the accident, my day had been pretty good. I aced all my tests. My friend gave me a really nice and thoughtful birthday present. It was our last day of school before Thanksgiving break. I was turning seventeen in a few days. I'd turned in my thesis outline on time. We had our first play rehearsal, which went really well. It was just a good day, until around four-thirty when I was driving home from school. 

I'd been so happy.
And then this happened. 

And no, I wasn't feeling particularly thankful. I had no clue what the heck I was supposed to take away from this. 

But I went home and calmed down and thought about it some more, and I realized there were things to be thankful for, even from this situation. I could be thankful that nobody got hurt. I could be thankful for the good day that I did have. Or that the damage to the car wasn't worse than it was. Or for the amazing friends and family that I have who comforted me after. 

There are always things to be thankful for, guys. But you've got to have the right mindset and know that no matter what, God is in control. 
And I'm most thankful for that. 

Happy Thanksgiving, y'all. ❤

Tuesday, November 22, 2016

Seventeen Questions for Seventeen Years






So today's my seventeenth birthday..... 

The year flew by so SO fast, you guys, I can't even explain. Although I'm sure you all know that feeling. So as a little celebration here, I've found seventeen reflective questions (on Pinterest lol) to answer. Just little questions about life and how it's going. 

1) When was the last time you tried something new? 

Yesterday, actually, I tried bacon jam. I don't particularly recommend it x)

2) What gets you excited about life? 

Aaah, life scares me. Seriously though, it can be overwhelming, especially when I think that I'm only seventeen as of today and I have so much life left to live and at the same time, not really...? In a sense? Cuz it just speeds by so fast. 

The little things get me excited about life. Rainy days. Sweaters. Days with my friends. Tea. Chocolate. Writing. The beach. Music. Imagination. Colorful leaves. Fuzzy blankets. And everything else. 

3) Who do you sometimes compare yourself to?

....My friends? My brother? My cousin? 

I have a cousin who is a bit older than me. He does really well in school and recently got into this college that I hope to go to in a few years. He's smart and put-together and I make fun of him a lot, but a lot of times I find myself comparing myself to him. 
He's gonna go places and I don't even know what I want for dinner xD 

4) What do you love and what are you doing about it? 

I love writing. 
What am I doing about it?
I'm writing. 

5) Do you ask enough questions or do you settle for what you know?

I try to ask questions. I talk to my teachers after class a lot, asking questions, hoping to better understand. I ask a lot of questions about life, just to myself. When I'm writing, I try to ask myself questions about the plot, the characters, where I want the story to go. 
I dunno if I ask ENOUGH questions, but I definitely ask questions. 

6) What's a belief you hold with which many people disagree? 

Well I mean, God. God is my main belief, and when I saw this question, He was the first thing to pop into my mind. 

But also, on a lesser note, the purpose of writing. I write for myself, but I've met people who say that writers should write for the world. That overwhelms me. I write what I have to say, not what the world wants to read. 

7) What can you do today that you were not capable of doing a year ago? 

I think I'm better at this life thing. I've learned to roll with the punches a bit more. I've learned how to better handle stress and to accept that God is in control and to let go of things that don't matter. 

8) Do you think crying is a sign of weakness or strength?

... I think it depends. But I know that crying itself doesn't make you weak. 

9) What would you do differently if you knew no one would judge you? 

I might.... actually share what I write? I never do that. But if I were more confident, maybe I would. 

10) Do you celebrate the things you have?

Yes. I try to everyday. Some days I fail, but I mean, we all go through ungrateful phases. But yes, I'm all about the little things in life, and I definitely try to celebrate what I have. (Especially with Thanksgiving in a few days!) 



11)  What is the difference between living and existing? 

Existing, in my opinion, is just paying the bills and dying. 

Living is finding adventure in the little things; being thankful for what you have; smiling daily; laughing daily; praying through the storm; giving back; finding God in all things beautiful. 

12) Have you done anything lately worth remembering? 

This question is such an eye opener, y'all. I hope that the answer is always yes. 

I know this is the thousandth time I've said this, but I'm all about the little things, so yeah, basically anything could be an answer for this. This month I've actually done a good deal of things, and I hope I remember them in fifty years. 

13) What does your joy look like today? 

God // my green sweater // family // laughing with my brothers // new jeans // no makeup // smiling

14) Which activities make you lose track of time? 

Writing. Listening to music. Reading. Pinterest-ing. 

15) If you had to teach something, what would you teach? 

Okay, I'd be the literal worst teacher ever, but probably dance. That's the only way I could see myself as a teacher. 

16) What life lesson did you learn the hard way? 

My main theme for life is "God is in control." And it became my main theme the hard way. I tried to control things. I forgot that God's got this. And I realized this after it all sorta blew up in my face a few times. 

17) When you are 80-years-old, what will matter to you most? 

What I have. But not in a selfish, greedy way. What will matter to me the most will be how I've lived my life and what/where it's gotten me. What I have to show for 80 years of life. 





Overall, it's been a good year. If you liked these questions, please feel free to use them x) I can't believe that a year from now I'll be eighteen!! Das craziness right there. 

(I just turned seventeen and I'm already thinking about turning eighteen. I'm normal.) 

I also can't believe I started this blog when I was a  fourteen-year-old who had no idea what she was doing. And now I'm seventeen and still don't really know what I'm doing (😄). 
But that's fine. 
I'll figure it out eventually. 

Thank you guys so much for reading <3


Photo cred: Emma  
Thanks bae x)

Sunday, November 20, 2016

Exclusive Snippets Part One (Get Excited!!)



WELCOME WELCOME TO THE GRAND EXCLUSIVE REVEALING OF SNIPPETS FROM MY WIP, PAST WIPS, AND EVERYTHING ELSE BY ABBY M HERSELF. 

And yes, it's exciting. 

...also it's not very exclusive....

But I'm extremely excited to share these little clips with you guys. I know I don't really talk much about my WIP(s) but I've decided that today is the day! (or the night... or whatever... I don't know what time you're reading this) (I'm such a dork). 

These are not in any particular order. No rhyme or reason. No method to my madness.

Okay yes I'm done I'll shut up now HERE YOU GO: 


//I was never curious until I turned fifteen, and the world started giving me things to be curious about.



//“Mom, do I have to conquer the world?”
“No,” she replied thoughtfully. “I suppose not. But someday,” she looked at me, “you’re going to grow up and you’re going to have to make it yours somehow. Every human leaves their mark in some way. You just have to figure out what you have to offer the world.”


//Myles and I weaved through alleys, heading towards the fields, from what I could tell. “What are they exactly?”

He stopped suddenly and I bumped into him. He gave me a quick glare before looking up at the abandoned warehouse we were standing outside of. “I think it’s pretty self-explanatory, if you ask me.”
“Well then next time, I won’t ask you.”


//“This is something I cannot accept. Spies, rebels against the cause, will not be tolerated!”

“Ironic,” I whispered to Myles, “that someone would think to rebel against the rebellion.”
He elbowed me in the ribs.


//I bit my lip as I walked along the surf, the wet sand sticking to my feet. My hand gripped the thongs of my flip-flops and swung a little higher than usual as I walked. My hair flew about my face and got caught between my lips and stuck to my eyelashes.


//"Sometimes He gives us pain to draw us closer to Him, or for another reason. He let His own Son be tortured, humiliated, and hung on a cross for us.” She looked at me, her eyes on fire, like the sky. But it was a calm, beautiful fire. “Sometimes He lets us hit rock bottom so we can realize that He is the Rock at the bottom.”


//That’s when the power went out and Stevie screamed bloody murder. Luckily, it wasn’t completely dark yet, so I could still just barely see, and things got clearer once my eyes adjusted, but the rain and clouds made it darker and louder than usual. I couldn’t remember the last time it had rained so hard.


//Brady asked if he could have donuts with his lunch, to which I immediately refused. I knew that I was in charge and that I needed to act responsibly.
            It didn’t last long. Ten and a half minutes later, the two of us were eating Cup o’ Noodles and donuts on the roof.  


//She lay in the lush, dancing grass and motioned for me to do the same. I didn’t feel solid, like I was made of air and wind and voice, but I sat.



Okay, that's actually less than I was going to put, but remember, this is only Part One. We'll get around to Part Two another time. 

SO I'm sorry if none of these made sense. But they're just little clips and little clips aren't supposed to make sense.  But what did you think?? Should I do a Part Two in the future or did you hate this and should Part Two become Part Never? 

I've got a post all pre-written and stuff (cuz I'm so organized) for Thanksgiving. So be back then! 

Peace ✌

Thursday, November 10, 2016

Thankful at Dusk



It's almost Thanksgiving. 
You know what I'm thankful for? 

I'm thankful for evenings like this. 

evenings where i'm driving in the slow lane
on the freeway
my bare feet gently pressing the pedals
my hands guiding the wheel
the rims of my glasses are brimming my vision

my brother is next to me in the passenger seat
he's reading something in the dimming light

and it's quiet.

and we drive under a periwinkle sky
with a few wisps of pink clouds
it's like a sky you'd see in a fairyland
not in southern california
yet here we are.

and there are palm trees 
lining the freeway
they seem to be glowing slightly against the sky.
and bordering my everything
my whole life
growing up
are the mountains
the grey-blue mountains that i see
that i've always seen.
i would never be able to get used to seeing a horizon
without these mountains.


and it's quiet.


my brother is still reading 
something for school. 

"jack," i say, "when karma flows, goodness follows."
"what?"
"i dunno, that's what it says on that truck over there."
"i disagree."
"are you calling that truck a liar?"
"only if that truck doesn't believe in karma." 

it's random snippets of conversation.
he's reading.
i'm driving.
and it's peaceful. 

and it's quiet. 

and i'm thankful for evenings like this.

Tuesday, November 1, 2016

Hello November

via
2016 is almost 2017 and my brain can't handle it. My brain is still processing that summer is over.

My brain is behind. 


OCTOBER IN REVIEW

October was the first month I actually felt strangely ready for, like my mind could actually comprehend it for some reason. It was a nice two days of feeling caught up and then the trees that line the soccer field at school took on this [really cool-looking] orange and green ombre look, and suddenly I felt mentally behind again. 

What to say about October. Academically, it was stressful. Report cards came out. My grades are good, but not good enough (*cue dramatic... idk, dramatic something, that sentence sounded dramatic). I don't know, I guess when people told me Junior year was going to be my hardest year of high school, I didn't take them seriously enough. Everything is college oriented now, and I feel like if I stop myself to breathe for even one second, I'm going to screw up and I'll fall behind and my grades will just die like.... like something that dies pathetically. I'm so tired. I feel like I'm running a marathon and there's no stopping until I make it to the end and the rest of my life is resting on my shoulders and I'm so tired. 

But enough of that! I will be upbeat for the rest of this post x) 

October was....

//leggings and giant flannels

//waking up to rain

//inordinate amounts of tea and coffee

//pumpkins and spices

//movie nights

//the Beatles, Abbey Road

//evenings in Hollywood

//coffee runs 

//PSATs

//bus rides

//chocolate

//reading Jane Eyre




Favorite October Moments...

//watching the sun rise from the bus window

//driving barefoot in ripped jeans and my brother's giant LA Clippers hoodie

//sitting in a coffee shop early in the morning

//staying up late studying

//walking around downtown Pasadena with my cousin

//singing the Beatles with my sister

//eating donuts outside with friends before the sun was up

//chopping off my hair

//my first vlog

Notice none of these include writing. Because I did no work on my WIP this month. Seriously, I've lost all motivation to work on it, which makes me think I should be doing NaNo right now..... 
I'm not doing NaNo this year, but my goal this month is to W R I T E. Because I need to!! I don't think I've worked on it since summer when I did Camp NaNo. 
I'm a sad soul who needs to write something. 

All in all, October was a busy but interesting month, full of early mornings and chilly weather. 


How was your October?