Because Sometimes

Because sometimes

nothing makes sense

Because sometimes

it's blurry

and dark 

and I get nervous

Because sometimes

I fall down

and the view is upside down

and that makes my head spin

and things look different from down there

and that makes me nervous

Because sometimes

we cry

because sometimes

it's too foggy

it's too long

it's

too

hard

and we get nervous

Because sometimes

we think we can't when we actually can

Because sometimes

Because sometimes

Because sometimes...

Sometimes we feel lonely. 

But the good news is

it's only sometimes.

The rest of the time

it's brighter.

And even if sometimes

we feel lost

it's okay because

a l l  t h e  t i m e 

God is good. 

Not just sometimes.

All the time.

Snow Day Photo Shoot

So I'm actually not in California at the moment: I'm on the East Coast for Easter break! I know that's a little backwards, most people go to warm places in April, but I live in a warm place and wanted to experience real seasons x) 

Yesterday we spent the day in Maine and there was snow everywhere! And I haven't seen snow in at least ten years, so my siblings and I were very excited, and I took some pictures. The birch trees were extra aesthetic.  

I have another surprise that I'll post when I get back to SoCal. Happy Easter, everyone!! <3

Hello April

not my image

It's April and I can't even begin to understand how. Why is time passing so quickly?? It's messing with the world. 

MARCH IN REVIEW

March was a hectic but good month! (Isn't that what I say about every month though?) Everything seems to be happening so fast and I feel very behind on figuring life out. But it was a good month. 

LIFE THINGS...

I took the SAT and the stress ALMOST KILLED ME but you know what, I did it and I feel good about it. I KILLED it in my essay! So proud of that. My AP English class does a lot of time-pressured rhetorical analyses, so I felt very prepared. 

School in general is stressing me out a lot though. I'm super focused on getting into this one college, but I realized I don't have a backup! And it's getting kind of late for me to be figuring out my backups. So that's scary.

I have started the application to The College™ (and by "started", I mean I opened it and stared at it a while, then closed it in frustration.) 

Also, any other Juniors out there kind of despising chemistry right about now?? 

But I only have six more weeks of school, not including an Easter break coming up! (which I'm very much looking forward to, and you'll see why in a future post) I can't believe the year is practically over. 

WRITING THINGS...

I FINISHED DRAFT TWO OF MY NOVEL!! And printed it out in book form to make editing more entertaining for myself. You can see all that here. And I let people read it??? Which was super scary at first, but I've gotten more comfortable with it. 

But to be honest, I'm sort of done with this book. It's a mess and I just want to scrap it. Plus, I have this new idea. I think I've talked about this before, it's my plot-less book dilemma. It still has no plot. Inspiration just isn't coming. But I'd really like to figure out a plot so I can get started on it, because I'm really excited to be starting a brand new project!

BOOKISH THINGS...

My grandma got me the complete set of the A Wrinkle in Time series. I know most people read these books when they're like twelve, but I never did and I FELT DEPRIVED so I was happy to get them and started reading immediately. They're sort of trippy to be honest, and at first I thought it was really interesting, but now I'm on the fourth book and it's getting kind of weird. I'm going to keep reading, because I do like them. 
I also finished reading The Scarlet Letter. It was for school, but I really liked reading it! There was an argument in my class over whether Pearl is demonic or not, and it lasted a good month at least. 

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MARCH WAS...

//sunburnt noses

//the shamrock shake from McDonalds (SO GOOD) 

//welcoming Spring

//new Ed Sheehan music

//alllll the green for Saint Patricks Day


FAVORITE MARCH MOMENTS...

//drive-thru with my brothers

//just taking time to sit and talk with people

//sitting in the middle of a quiet street at night with my cousin

//driving in the early morning

//writing

//visiting with family

//finishing my SAT (BEST MOMENT EVER) 

HOW WAS YOUR MARCH?